Things to think about

Life is not about how many breaths you take, it's about how many times life takes your breath away...


Life is about taking risks and stepping out of my comfort zone.That is my struggle now. Between trusting God and status quo, I would choose the former. Yet fear grips me strong. I am confused and maybe mainly so due to the fear of knowing the uncertainty out of the zone.*sigh*


I know I am wild inside. Many dreams of making this world a better place, yet gripped by fear. I feel so paralysed. Choking. Sometimes it seems so much better not to be given choices. Then God would not be love if He didn't give us any.


And I do wonder many times why I am in this state. Did the education system cultivate this fear of the unknown into my soul? You know, since we have been spoon fed almost all our lives (the Malaysian education system gives answers instead of encouraging us to think) and certainty is a certainty? But I am not like that. On the average, I'm quite sure that I ask and think so much that I'm possibly here because of that habit. And yet I am fearful. It's frustrating. Absolutely frustrating.Bah!

Lord, I trust You and yet I don't. You get what I mean? I need a divine exchange. I'm not known to do the drastic. I used to. I went and did them. I trusted You so much when I was younger, why should it be any different now? :( I know that one day will come soon. Real soon. :)


just one life,
gracey