I've mellowed so much the last 3 years. I hardly go out nowadays, unlike when I was back home. Part of me wants to go out spending solid time with friends and knowing how they are doing, yada yada. But sometimes even when I do that, I feel that I'm alone. In the league of my own among my peers? That's what Lionel says. I really don't know. And sometimes I feel so out of place. And most of the time, it's transport problems. To get out of Subang to go to Pee-Jay, I need to hop on to 2 different buses, get onto the LRT and maybe walk, if the place is within walking distance. Otherwise, I need to ask someone to pick me up from somewhere or something. I dislike mafan-ing people. I really do. I appreciate people like Lionel, Lydia, Philip and We-Ki who have been driving me to church and cell and everywhere else especially Lionel. But still I WANT a car. If you have no car in KL, it spells I-N-C-O-N-V-E-N-I-E-N-C-E because you either depend on someone for transport or you depend on someone for transport. Get it?
So back to the mellowing part. I would rather spend time one on one with friends. Big groups don't flatter me, coz it's hard to have meaningful conversations. But once or twice a week is ok and good for me personally. Even then, I think I haven't gone mamak-ing in months because my transport has to leave early. So I do NEED a car. Therefore all the becoming quiet part of me has been assisted by the fact that I do not have to freedom to go where I want to without a CAR.
However, I have noticed changes in my life most of this year. God has been so great to me. Besides Lionel, Cynthia & Mike, there are people like Cheryl, Pr Seng Fei, and some others who have been constantly, deliberately and unknowingly(yeah) mentoring me. I know that I needed to mellow, but don't worry, it was not a forced effort. Instead, it was a process that allowed God to take me where I am right now. And I still need a car! :-)
God placed me here without a car for many reasons. And one of them is to learn to depend on others. It's not entirely easy to do with my kind of person. *smile* I'm basking in the fact that I have 'chaffeurs' to drive me around. Not anymore when I get a car. That'll be maybe in about 2 years' time. Not complaining. But I still do need a car.Heh.
In due time, I'll have one. In the mean time, I'll appreciate what I have.
just one life,
gracey
So back to the mellowing part. I would rather spend time one on one with friends. Big groups don't flatter me, coz it's hard to have meaningful conversations. But once or twice a week is ok and good for me personally. Even then, I think I haven't gone mamak-ing in months because my transport has to leave early. So I do NEED a car. Therefore all the becoming quiet part of me has been assisted by the fact that I do not have to freedom to go where I want to without a CAR.
However, I have noticed changes in my life most of this year. God has been so great to me. Besides Lionel, Cynthia & Mike, there are people like Cheryl, Pr Seng Fei, and some others who have been constantly, deliberately and unknowingly(yeah) mentoring me. I know that I needed to mellow, but don't worry, it was not a forced effort. Instead, it was a process that allowed God to take me where I am right now. And I still need a car! :-)
God placed me here without a car for many reasons. And one of them is to learn to depend on others. It's not entirely easy to do with my kind of person. *smile* I'm basking in the fact that I have 'chaffeurs' to drive me around. Not anymore when I get a car. That'll be maybe in about 2 years' time. Not complaining. But I still do need a car.Heh.
In due time, I'll have one. In the mean time, I'll appreciate what I have.
just one life,
gracey
8 comments:
Hey, interesting. Every paragraph emphasizes the need for a car. Just share with you something my friend shared with me...my friend is in Germany now, on a project. She wrote, that the Daddy in heaven was so good, that even when she didn't ask for a car, the company got her one. And imagine this if you can, a Mercedes...She couldn't describe the whole incident but just praise. Well, the Mercedes was too big for her, she in turn got a Volkswagen...which is equally a nice car.
I'm sure your car will come. In the meantime, enjoy what you have, because it's not the measure of what you possess that makes you great or more successful, but the moments you make count for your life that really counts.
So, enjoy this life, every phase is a lesson God has something to teach. God bless, and will be praying that you'll get your car soon. :)
Hahah..I just emphasised it for fun. And to make it obvious how much I would want to have one because it's so inconvenient to go anywhere without it. And you know how the transport system in Malaysia sucks.Hahah..Don't need a car THAT soon..Can't afford one and I still have people to drive me.. ;P
Yo bebz.. Car is good.. Escape haze, comfy legspace.. music..
EH you can borrow car what. DId you know i drove a LOT around in perth tho I had no car? Muahahaha. God is good when u use cars serve ppl.
Ask Him lar... But fuel is a killer.. and as much as I dislike autos... you will NEED one in Klang Valley. No kidding man... ;)
Yeah, escape haze sounds good. It's so bad today. Hoping I don't get sick because of that.
Borrow car? From whom? Everyone who has a car here uses them, and how many people would buy a car to lend to their friends? Perth easier to do lar.. ;)
Got ask Him la but it's ok la. Still wanna be driven around. I'm spoiled. :p
Um... still don't know you just from gracey. Oh well... either we'll meet up in distant future (when I go back to M'sia again) or I'll just know you through blog ^_^
I hope that when you are blessed with a car you too will offer rides to the other car-less- out there.
Levi : You take your time to think la..Can ask Jimmy too if you wanna find out..If not, we'll just 'meet' through other means..like this one. :)
Steve: Yeah, I will. It's time then for me to bless others. *smile* Remind me if I don't. :)
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