Now I know why I don't like asking people for help even when I need it. Wait, that's not right. I hardly think that I need help. That's not because I am proud, but it comes with being strong-willed. I like helping people, but when it comes to people helping me, I don't normally ask. Pretty cool discovery. At least I understand this part of me more now.
No wonder I dislike to depend on people for transport. It takes away that freedom to be in control. Hah! I guess that's why God put me in that place where I have to depend on people for transport to go to church and CG. It's been almost 4 years of dependence now! It takes a lot of effort for me to ask (it feels like begging sometimes) people to pick me up, and sometimes it takes 5 -6 smses to different people before I finally get transport. Most of the time by the time I asked the third person, I would feel extremely low already. Now I know why. LOL.
I don't like asking people for help because to me that's troubling them. On the other hand, I don't mind giving help to people. What a contrast. I cannot utter those few words like, "I need help" or "I feel low and I need someone to speak to". I always think that I should be able to do better than that on my own. "Excuses, excuses" I hear people say, but they're really not excuses to me. I really do think that I can do things on my own. Frustrates me even more especially when I do ask for help and the help I get is something that I could have done better in my own effort. It is only because I have my own mind, not because the helpful person sucks, okay? ;)
Too much info about me, I feel awkward now. Shites. Tata.
same yet different,
gracey
No wonder I dislike to depend on people for transport. It takes away that freedom to be in control. Hah! I guess that's why God put me in that place where I have to depend on people for transport to go to church and CG. It's been almost 4 years of dependence now! It takes a lot of effort for me to ask (it feels like begging sometimes) people to pick me up, and sometimes it takes 5 -6 smses to different people before I finally get transport. Most of the time by the time I asked the third person, I would feel extremely low already. Now I know why. LOL.
I don't like asking people for help because to me that's troubling them. On the other hand, I don't mind giving help to people. What a contrast. I cannot utter those few words like, "I need help" or "I feel low and I need someone to speak to". I always think that I should be able to do better than that on my own. "Excuses, excuses" I hear people say, but they're really not excuses to me. I really do think that I can do things on my own. Frustrates me even more especially when I do ask for help and the help I get is something that I could have done better in my own effort. It is only because I have my own mind, not because the helpful person sucks, okay? ;)
Too much info about me, I feel awkward now. Shites. Tata.
same yet different,
gracey
5 comments:
kam ching!! saya pun sama.. i know how u feel now, now that i'm here... :(
the good thing about asking ppl for transport is that we get to make deeper friends with the drivers...hahaha... and observe how different ppl drive! :)
Lisa: Hey, it's part of our journey to become Christlike. So I guess we have to learn to humble ourselves in that sense to understand what it is really like to be helped. :)
Sarah: LOL. That's just one of the things. But now I understand that it really takes a strong-willed person to understand another, and with that knowledge, avail ourselves to minister to each other. Means I have to force myself into your life to bless you because I know you won't ask for help. LOL. ;)
I so totally agree with you Grace. The feeling is mutual. I find it tough too to ask people for help. At times I just rather not go ahead with things than ask for help. But like you, I enjoy helping others. Haha! All the strong will orangs... ish~
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