It seems to me more and more that it is time for me to grow up. Although I would hate to admit it, I am quite dependent on my family. They bless me with their counsel and presence, and because of this I frequently turn to them when I need help - help that sometimes I do not need (meaning I can settle the matter myself). I am grateful because I know dad will be there when I have questions about the car or the house, mom when it comes to finances & food, ko when it comes to wisdom about life & che, just to hear her voice.
I am attached to my family so much that I refuse to get out of my comfort zone. I refuse to grow up and be responsible. I still think I am a baby. Well, many of you may not have noticed this because I've always been seen to be able to handle matters on my own. Only to certain areas of my life.
I subject myself to the safety net all the time. It has occurred to me that I am right now more and more eager to learn the many things in the world, practical for living I would say. Working has opened my eyes, and it has shown me that I really have no idea what life IS all about. It's all the small things that matters. I am only a tiny dot on earth.
Baby stuff aside, it's time to take stock of the year again. Again I would reiterate, time FLIES. It flew by quickly. Acquaintances have become friends, and the unfamiliar have become somewhat familiar. Yet God is ever probing, and working on my heart. Quoting many people, "We're all WORKS IN PROGRESS".
My faith journey has just begun. God works in our hearts individually, catering to our needs and communicating with us the way only we can understand and comprehend, just as the way He made us.
My God is BIG. Therefore how I see Him should also change. I noticed that as of recent years, how I see Him has indeed expanded. In my most wretched and unworthy moments, I know God does not condemn at the realisation of Him being the forgiving and gracious God. It is a phase. Now it's my turn.
YWAM will indeed challenge my way of life, and mostly, in my inkling, my thought life. I pray and do know that for the next 10 months, God will prepare me to step out into the certainty of the unknown with Him.
stepping up,
gracey
I am attached to my family so much that I refuse to get out of my comfort zone. I refuse to grow up and be responsible. I still think I am a baby. Well, many of you may not have noticed this because I've always been seen to be able to handle matters on my own. Only to certain areas of my life.
I subject myself to the safety net all the time. It has occurred to me that I am right now more and more eager to learn the many things in the world, practical for living I would say. Working has opened my eyes, and it has shown me that I really have no idea what life IS all about. It's all the small things that matters. I am only a tiny dot on earth.
Baby stuff aside, it's time to take stock of the year again. Again I would reiterate, time FLIES. It flew by quickly. Acquaintances have become friends, and the unfamiliar have become somewhat familiar. Yet God is ever probing, and working on my heart. Quoting many people, "We're all WORKS IN PROGRESS".
My faith journey has just begun. God works in our hearts individually, catering to our needs and communicating with us the way only we can understand and comprehend, just as the way He made us.
My God is BIG. Therefore how I see Him should also change. I noticed that as of recent years, how I see Him has indeed expanded. In my most wretched and unworthy moments, I know God does not condemn at the realisation of Him being the forgiving and gracious God. It is a phase. Now it's my turn.
YWAM will indeed challenge my way of life, and mostly, in my inkling, my thought life. I pray and do know that for the next 10 months, God will prepare me to step out into the certainty of the unknown with Him.
stepping up,
gracey
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Dunno what to say here actually... But I like to read your posts like this one.. It encourages me as well...
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