biking with the wind blowing me...

yeah, hoping that my mind makes some sense in writing. my sense of black and white in matters relating to life and thoughts are becoming blurred - i hope not by the influence of new age but rather by the influence and my human understanding of the grace of God. i want these recordings to become a reminder of God's faithfulness in my golden days.
So, welcome my friend, let's learn together. I beckon you.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

All Over Again

Teman sejati. This song aptly describes how I feel about the many friendships/relationships which I've developed over the years. The last line says it all, "....hanyalah Dia yang abadi". Only God is eternal.

Only God is perfect, never changing, unwavering, sure, dependable and steady.

I have been unable to blog. Well, I have been busy but that's not the real reason. Been just tired of the battles I've been made to face everyday at work.

All I want to do is come home early to rest - whatever that really means. Since Monday my days have ended in utter frustration. Today was no less. I thought it would end sweet for the first time! but I was delayed.

I've been thinking lately a lot about my attitude towards work. Have I been too protective over my personal time that I have compromised work? Where is the line to draw? Who determines that line?

Why have I been reacting negatively the past few days? Was my reaction towards work or towards the people I am working with? Or was it towards how I feel I am being treated? Sometimes I wish I can just tell him to shut up and speak only when he has gentle words to say. His words have probably hurt many people, especially women/ladies/girls.

Bleh. Difficult to go through this. I need my compass.


lost,
gracey

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