biking with the wind blowing me...

yeah, hoping that my mind makes some sense in writing. my sense of black and white in matters relating to life and thoughts are becoming blurred - i hope not by the influence of new age but rather by the influence and my human understanding of the grace of God. i want these recordings to become a reminder of God's faithfulness in my golden days.
So, welcome my friend, let's learn together. I beckon you.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Bed 7, Ward 7, 5th Floor - HUKM

I am not in the place to report about how the surgery went. In my lay person's eyes, it was a successful surgery. The prof cleared all that was in sight. What with the possibility of losing my sight, I must say it was superbly done. I was rather skeptical the first few days of recovery about my sight. My eye balls felt pressed against something, the nerves surrounding the eyes felt thin - I prayed like nobody's business. It was as if my eyes would burst anytime soon!!

I received news from YWAM that I have been accepted for the October DTS the night before I was admitted to the hospital. It was exhilarating and the timing - perfect.

Walking through the corridors of the hospital alone was overwhelming. I felt so alone and afraid suddenly. Reality sank in then. Imagine checking yourself in for a surgery. I don't know what I would have done without my parents.

I was coughing and it was getting bad. It was a defining moment. I didn't believe that God would give me an earlier slot to not allow me to proceed with the surgery because of my cough. I sent my prayer need to my cell group for an immediate miraculous healing from the cough. In my heart and mind, it was, " Lord, please make it disappear just for me to get green light from the anesthetist and go for the surgery!! I don't want to go home now. Not when I've come this far."

For the next 4 hours I did not cough one bit and the anesthetist cleared me. I did a little more coughing through the night, but they weren't bad. In the morning I was the first to be pushed in to the Operation Theatre. I was in by 7.10 am and was left on the trolley without much to do except wait.

I waited till I fell asleep. Had a short nap even. At 7.55 am I was wheeled into OT 5. God was evidently there. There was so much peace I didn't feel afraid at all - even joked with the OT staff. Normally, I would have jumped into a fit with my heart pumping fast.

Was on GA about 8 ish and didn't wake up until 12 something. The surgery effectively was 3 hours, with probably 30 minutes each for preparation and recovery time. It was a major procedure. My mom was alarmed that it took so long, and many others thought it was a minor procedure.

"Can you see me?", "What colour am I wearing? What colour is this?", "Follow my finger." - these were some of the things the doctor asked me to do when they came to see me the day after. I wasn't fully awake until about 5 something on surgery day - pigging out at the hospital.

My mom fed and changed me - she's fabulous. I was too weak to even open my eyes.

This whole thing - is all glory to God. My original surgery date was 24 August 2007. The prof saw me only 3 times yet he remembered that I was going to Australia and I needed to get the surgery done fast!! It is a 1.5 months earlier date - 13 July 2007!! In addition to that, I wouldn't have been able to have enough time to recover before I left for Australia - barely a month and now I'm having a 3 weeks MC!! Man, how good is that??

God's plans and timing - noone can beat. I am elated and thoroughly excited.


breathing,
gracey

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

good to hear that u are geting well and god bless love minying