So I'm just about a week away from another phase of adventure and of my life. I'm beginning to think a little about the future. Our weekly creative journal this week also calls for reflection and projection for the final week we're doing our reports.
So what's next after DTS (Discipleship Training School)? I really don't know. I think it is amazing how God has intricately planned all the details without me knowing. Give you a picture. I'm a planner, and I've always been planning my life ahead, sometimes years ahead. I don't remember a time in my entire 23 years of life (sounds profound eh? hahahhaha) that I have no plans at all. I really have no idea at all what am I to do with myself after DTS. So for the first time in my life, I do not have plans at all. Nil. Zero.
And I still have no idea. Haha. It feels as if it's been blotted out of my mind entirely. There is no idea, no assurance but just blank. It's been left blank since I planned to come to YWAM. Now that I'm here, it's still not been filled up. I guess God has some surprises for me. I do have ideas, but nothing concrete, and everything is a "I don't know".
I'm glad I guess, because then I can fully concentrate on what God wants to speak to me about and not be distracted by my ever great planning skills and ability. Or could it be a fear? I don't think so. There hasn't been anything great that has resonated in my heart just yet. Maybe at outreach I'll get my answer, or the answer I have been seeking for. I have lots of peace, so that's a great thing.
The idea of working again is not settling really well in my heart. I don't have enthusiasm for it, neither do I feel at peace going back to work. Sure, I want to have a go at earning good bucks but it doesn't matter as long as I am in God's will. Being close to God is the best place to be in the world. I love it.
And I still have no conclusion. Perhaps the conclusion is to wait. =)
missing home,
gracey
So what's next after DTS (Discipleship Training School)? I really don't know. I think it is amazing how God has intricately planned all the details without me knowing. Give you a picture. I'm a planner, and I've always been planning my life ahead, sometimes years ahead. I don't remember a time in my entire 23 years of life (sounds profound eh? hahahhaha) that I have no plans at all. I really have no idea at all what am I to do with myself after DTS. So for the first time in my life, I do not have plans at all. Nil. Zero.
And I still have no idea. Haha. It feels as if it's been blotted out of my mind entirely. There is no idea, no assurance but just blank. It's been left blank since I planned to come to YWAM. Now that I'm here, it's still not been filled up. I guess God has some surprises for me. I do have ideas, but nothing concrete, and everything is a "I don't know".
I'm glad I guess, because then I can fully concentrate on what God wants to speak to me about and not be distracted by my ever great planning skills and ability. Or could it be a fear? I don't think so. There hasn't been anything great that has resonated in my heart just yet. Maybe at outreach I'll get my answer, or the answer I have been seeking for. I have lots of peace, so that's a great thing.
The idea of working again is not settling really well in my heart. I don't have enthusiasm for it, neither do I feel at peace going back to work. Sure, I want to have a go at earning good bucks but it doesn't matter as long as I am in God's will. Being close to God is the best place to be in the world. I love it.
And I still have no conclusion. Perhaps the conclusion is to wait. =)
missing home,
gracey
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