Isn't she lovely? =)
I walked the dog today. First time in my entire life. Another first!! Yes, Sissy was so excited when she saw me near her, and she started jumping up high for joy literally. Since I did not have much to do and needed time to phase out, I figured I could take her for a walk.
It was fun! She led me, I allowed her to since I did not have a destination in mind. Free world. =) I observed her. She sniffed almost every part of that walk and I wondered why she did that. She'd stop, sniff, walk in a circle on a spot and then move on and do that same thing all over again. We did not cover a big area because that little beauty was having fun doing her thing. She gets to stroll only once a week, twice at most.
I have come a long way with animals, especially more obvious with dogs. Never really knew what to do with these creatures, did not understand why humans talk to them when it was apparent that they could not and can never reply, and also did not know how to respond to a situation where the owner waits for me to respond to their animal somewhat. So I tried my utter best to not be near animals.
I did not know how to love them, caress and touch them nor speak to them. I guess I was not ready to show that I felt inadequate and crippled when it came to showing affection. I did not know how to love.
The change though, has been noticeable. I now talk to these doggies and other animals as if they're my friends, really. It is definitely a result of being released from apathy and compassion? A work of God, a result of His faithfulness. I am not there yet, but at least I am on my way there ya know? I feel so liberated emotionally, and so free intellectually (in my mind). Cannot rule out the fact that my animal loving friends have rubbed off their love for animals and people on me. =)
I could not even handle talking to babies on my own. Like cradling them and talking to them without them replying? I would have felt really stupid like I was talking to a wall, but not anymore. Not that self-conscious anymore. It is good. God has done good stuff in me heart and mind and self-identity. Amazing God. I love Him!! Absolutely do. =)
walked the dog,
gracey
It was fun! She led me, I allowed her to since I did not have a destination in mind. Free world. =) I observed her. She sniffed almost every part of that walk and I wondered why she did that. She'd stop, sniff, walk in a circle on a spot and then move on and do that same thing all over again. We did not cover a big area because that little beauty was having fun doing her thing. She gets to stroll only once a week, twice at most.
I have come a long way with animals, especially more obvious with dogs. Never really knew what to do with these creatures, did not understand why humans talk to them when it was apparent that they could not and can never reply, and also did not know how to respond to a situation where the owner waits for me to respond to their animal somewhat. So I tried my utter best to not be near animals.
I did not know how to love them, caress and touch them nor speak to them. I guess I was not ready to show that I felt inadequate and crippled when it came to showing affection. I did not know how to love.
The change though, has been noticeable. I now talk to these doggies and other animals as if they're my friends, really. It is definitely a result of being released from apathy and compassion? A work of God, a result of His faithfulness. I am not there yet, but at least I am on my way there ya know? I feel so liberated emotionally, and so free intellectually (in my mind). Cannot rule out the fact that my animal loving friends have rubbed off their love for animals and people on me. =)
I could not even handle talking to babies on my own. Like cradling them and talking to them without them replying? I would have felt really stupid like I was talking to a wall, but not anymore. Not that self-conscious anymore. It is good. God has done good stuff in me heart and mind and self-identity. Amazing God. I love Him!! Absolutely do. =)
walked the dog,
gracey
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