biking with the wind blowing me...

yeah, hoping that my mind makes some sense in writing. my sense of black and white in matters relating to life and thoughts are becoming blurred - i hope not by the influence of new age but rather by the influence and my human understanding of the grace of God. i want these recordings to become a reminder of God's faithfulness in my golden days.
So, welcome my friend, let's learn together. I beckon you.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Contemplation - Reminder

I need to remind myself over and over again. Life is short, I can buy everything but time. I can buy everything but impact a person's life, inspire, encourage.

If I die tomorrow and go home to the Father, I want to die having been wholehearted in my pursuit of God, of a relationship with Him and others; a total abandonment to Him, though total seems faraway.

I realise how easy it is to give up and say, "What is the point?". What is the point for being wholehearted in believing God's word when the entire world is stacked up against you, what is the point of building others up when noone's appreciated it, what is the point? The POINT is, I have made my life count. I have loved because God said so. I have not given up. I have run my race to the finishing line. The end seems faraway though. Will I make it to the end?

My great cloud of witnesses, you are still cheering me on, aren't you? How would I have survived if not for Your mercy? I wouldn't have understood all these with so much clarity. Cloud, go away!!

Fix my eyes on You O God. Have mercy on us. How Your heart must ache and break. I cannot fathom. Forgive us O God, how the humankind has deteriorated. We are such a bunch of unworthies. How do You go by watching us without having blood tears and heart stabs? I cannot imagine.


I am sober.
gracey

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