Erm....

Longsuffering. Do I understand what this means? A little perhaps. It is making a lot more sense now, though I'm flipping back and forth.

In a month and a half, I would have been home for a year. A YEAR!! Get that. I would have worked for 8 months by this Saturday, 11th April. I really can't believe how everything passed by my life, and how far I've come. Or maybe how near I've gone. The ironies.

I have been ruined for the better, for THAT hope in THAT PERSON. I have. It is true that I have not been able to adjust home completely, and I am at rest with that, with not being able to adjust home COMPLETELY. If I could do that, then maybe things have not changed at all. I guess I'm just ranting because it gets too difficult sometimes, knowing that this is potentially a solitude road.

People will give opinions, ALL kinds, and are hopeful that you follow their advices, but I am reminded that there is only ONE GRACE YONG who can answer God's call for Grace Yong's life, and only ONE Grace Yong can worship Him the way I was made to worship Him. And sometimes, or maybe oftentimes, only I can discern God's call for my life (in saying this I am not saying pastors don't have a place in counsel and discernment, I'm just talking about those who are not direct authorities over my life). 

I will just need to learn to sift out everything that's unnecessary and perhaps not helpful (although they could be music to my ears). I will need to learn to hear God's voice and be familiar with Him. Which makes spending time with Him more needful. Oh, but it should not be that reason that I spend time with God. I want to know Him, He wants to know me too. 

Anyways...random posting.

gracey