It dawned on me that perhaps...perhaps I have had writer's block because God said 4 years ago that He would be rebuilding my foundations. Perhaps I have been mum because there were so many questions in my head, and there were just no answers. I had many answers in my head about some things as well, but I could not say, write nor express anything because of the desire to gain full understanding before writing my heart out.
Perhaps lately, God has been bringing waves of clarity in my mind and heart, and that is why I have been able to express myself with an unusual sense of liberty. I do not feel as hypocritical as before, and there is a renewed freedom and perhaps agenda to keep this blog. Blogging seems like a lagging movement now compared to twitting and facebooking, but I still find satisfaction in writing my thoughts out. I admit sometimes my thoughts are quite scattered and I do not disclose details, but it gives me a great satisfaction to write, write and write. Because writing helps me express my thoughts in ways that I do not know how in verbal communication. Some things remain kept in the mind, because I do not know how to express my thoughts well. Perhaps it is a flaw, perhaps it is something that I will never be able to fully improve on, but I relent and am at peace.
Thank You Lord for Your faithfulness in tearing down falls walls and rebuilding my foundations. It has been too many years a silence, not having been able to express anything verbally nor in the written form. Getting it right in the brain first was probably your focus for my life since 2007. I think I am more ready now, and headed towards the right direction. The deleting my music collection bit was an act of faith, of wanting to move on from what was that You desire for me. A new genre You call me to, representing a new season, a new era of things I am unfamiliar with. Let the adventures begin! :) I love You Jesus!
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