Well really, what's the difference?? So many things have changed, but I cannot pinpoint at anything. I guess I MUST have changed. A LOT? Maybe between a lot and a little.
I went back to church for the first time in 3 months, and found myself unfamiliar with myself in the surroundings. When they sang fast songs, all I could do was cry. I cried in my heart, but sucked in my tears quite successfully. *grin* I said to God, " Oh Lord, I have changed much." I was pretty much quiet throughout worship, quiet inside and outside. Contemplating about how my perspectives have indeed been transformed.
I read Psalm 121 in my heart and then wrote some thoughts hanging in the clouds of my brain. Here's what I wrote down when they were singing.
Father,
What a way to come home to DUMC!! New songs, new people, new bulletin designs! Truly I have changed, Lord. I cannot comprehend nor understand the changes I have gone through, but I do know that they're all good. It's not that I cannot worship you, I just don't know how to sing the songs. I guess there is again depth in the way I see You, sing songs to You and close my eyes to worship You.
That was a processed thought, in some ways, so you guys may not understand FULLY what the letter really means. :)
Psalm 121 ministered to me, because with all the questions I have in my heart, God promises that He will not let my foot slip, He does NOT slumber nor sleep. So I CAN continue searching, and questioning as long as my eyes are fixed on Him. The Lord will keep me from ALL harm! Thank you dear Lord! So Grace, don't go out of beat! =)
This is all for now. More later.
same yet different,
gracey
I went back to church for the first time in 3 months, and found myself unfamiliar with myself in the surroundings. When they sang fast songs, all I could do was cry. I cried in my heart, but sucked in my tears quite successfully. *grin* I said to God, " Oh Lord, I have changed much." I was pretty much quiet throughout worship, quiet inside and outside. Contemplating about how my perspectives have indeed been transformed.
I read Psalm 121 in my heart and then wrote some thoughts hanging in the clouds of my brain. Here's what I wrote down when they were singing.
Father,
What a way to come home to DUMC!! New songs, new people, new bulletin designs! Truly I have changed, Lord. I cannot comprehend nor understand the changes I have gone through, but I do know that they're all good. It's not that I cannot worship you, I just don't know how to sing the songs. I guess there is again depth in the way I see You, sing songs to You and close my eyes to worship You.
That was a processed thought, in some ways, so you guys may not understand FULLY what the letter really means. :)
Psalm 121 ministered to me, because with all the questions I have in my heart, God promises that He will not let my foot slip, He does NOT slumber nor sleep. So I CAN continue searching, and questioning as long as my eyes are fixed on Him. The Lord will keep me from ALL harm! Thank you dear Lord! So Grace, don't go out of beat! =)
This is all for now. More later.
same yet different,
gracey
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