biking with the wind blowing me...

yeah, hoping that my mind makes some sense in writing. my sense of black and white in matters relating to life and thoughts are becoming blurred - i hope not by the influence of new age but rather by the influence and my human understanding of the grace of God. i want these recordings to become a reminder of God's faithfulness in my golden days.
So, welcome my friend, let's learn together. I beckon you.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Homesick 2

I think it will always be like this, being sad over coming back to a city full of strangers and acquaintances. Maybe that's why I dread coming back here. Tears well up, no words to describe how I feel out of place and alone here. No matter how much my family can't stand me, it is still better because I know they love me. Here, I need to be a certain person just so that people would accept me. If I show a glimpse of me, I'd get feedbacks of expectations of how I should carry myself - maybe that's why I don't gel with many people naturally, the way it can and should be.

Or maybe I should learn to love myself. Otherwise, how can others love me right?

City life = busyness, many Touch 'N' Go friends

Town life = relax le, no need to rush anywhere (10 minutes maximum to travel)


gracey

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You can be sure that Father loves you just the way you are, no more and no less.... the amazing thing is that He loves you with the same intencity, the same unfathomable depth regardless of any state you are in.

You don't have to change who you are just to have affirmation or acceptance from people around you. You can, however, strive to be more and more like Christ because of your love for Him.

If people around you don't accept you for who you are, its not your issue. Its theirs.

After all, how you conduct yourself, its ultimately between you and God. We are all work-in-progress.

Be blessed.