For the past 3 weeks, I have been having many thoughts in my mind. The thoughts would rally back and forth between what's next and what God has taught me in the past 6 months now. Most times the thoughts are so random that I do not even get to record the thoughts down, or expand and explore deeper into the train of thoughts. I'm always looking for opportunities I can hide myself and write, but most often, when I do really get it, I am too tired to do anything except to hit my head to the sack.
At this moment, I have nothing running through my mind BUT I have the time. It is exasperating. My eyes are threatening to shut down but I'm forcing them to remain open!! Maybe I'll just share what I have been up to so far.
Everyday I have 2 hyper-active children to entertain in my sister's house. The house is only silent and quiet when they go to bed, other than that, it's full blast activity throughout the day. The only times I get to escape from them are when I go grocery shopping with my sister and time after church because my sister and her husband attend training seminars and they are nannied by church people.
Don't get me wrong, I love having them around, but the insanity is overwhelming. What a switch, from teenagers who love God to screaming kids. Hmmm...Having said that, I will not get this crazy "I want your attention" anymore once I leave Melbourne. The insanity is only for this season. My nephew and niece are extremely adorable and I love them. =) It'd be hard to switch modes again.
Looking at how things are moving along, I will not be surprised if I get confused with how I am to behave. Actually, I don't even know how to carry myself now, because I've been exposed to so many different cultures in the past 6 months I'd say if I had any restrictions in the past because of my culture, I don't know where all those went!! In short, I'm in for a culture shock in my own culture. For sure!!
Sometimes I'm afraid that I forget what I have learnt and begin to behave like before I left. Truthfully, I didn't even notice that I've changed, but the fact is, as I have begun seeing, I have changed tonnes, especially in my perspectives. God, I don't want to forget anything that you have taught me!!
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom..
gracey
At this moment, I have nothing running through my mind BUT I have the time. It is exasperating. My eyes are threatening to shut down but I'm forcing them to remain open!! Maybe I'll just share what I have been up to so far.
Everyday I have 2 hyper-active children to entertain in my sister's house. The house is only silent and quiet when they go to bed, other than that, it's full blast activity throughout the day. The only times I get to escape from them are when I go grocery shopping with my sister and time after church because my sister and her husband attend training seminars and they are nannied by church people.
Don't get me wrong, I love having them around, but the insanity is overwhelming. What a switch, from teenagers who love God to screaming kids. Hmmm...Having said that, I will not get this crazy "I want your attention" anymore once I leave Melbourne. The insanity is only for this season. My nephew and niece are extremely adorable and I love them. =) It'd be hard to switch modes again.
Looking at how things are moving along, I will not be surprised if I get confused with how I am to behave. Actually, I don't even know how to carry myself now, because I've been exposed to so many different cultures in the past 6 months I'd say if I had any restrictions in the past because of my culture, I don't know where all those went!! In short, I'm in for a culture shock in my own culture. For sure!!
Sometimes I'm afraid that I forget what I have learnt and begin to behave like before I left. Truthfully, I didn't even notice that I've changed, but the fact is, as I have begun seeing, I have changed tonnes, especially in my perspectives. God, I don't want to forget anything that you have taught me!!
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom..
gracey
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