biking with the wind blowing me...

yeah, hoping that my mind makes some sense in writing. my sense of black and white in matters relating to life and thoughts are becoming blurred - i hope not by the influence of new age but rather by the influence and my human understanding of the grace of God. i want these recordings to become a reminder of God's faithfulness in my golden days.
So, welcome my friend, let's learn together. I beckon you.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Spirals....hmmmmm

And it's a downward spiral to go upwards. Why am I here in this place? It's necessary, but NOT fun at all.

I don't understand how and why I feel like this. No, that's a lie. I know why I feel like this, but I don't understand why I need to feel like this. It's part of the circle of emotions I will be expecting to go through for the next 12 months!! Man, I won't change it for the world, but it does feel awful being here. Helplessness. Abandonment.

I am but one of you. Where do I go from here? To whom shall I go but YOU God? Oh, why the torture and confusion? I want OUT!! But You want me in. I can never be out of Your sight, can I?


Love,
me.

2 comments:

Lik Xiong said...

hey jie... we must meet up and catch up... you still using the same cellphone no? email me your new one if you changed ok? coz i rmbr u told me u using that no temporarily only

gRaCeY said...

Same cellphone number, both numbers also can use. Both belong to me anyway. =)