It's been a few years that I have felt this 'writer's block'. I have felt so limited in what I could actually share or write here, but today, I wondered if that was the Lord's kind doing, in sorting my mind out. It must be. I used to be able to write down my thoughts fairly well, but I realise He must have been refining me and there are many things that really doesn't need the world of publication to know. My flow of thoughts have seemed to have humps and mountains everywhere, and very badly disconnected compared to what I remember. I feel limited in my ability to communicate words in a place I used to feel at home.
Thoughts. Who needs to know our thoughts except me and God? But sharing thoughts are the only way to build relationships and friendships with others. If there were no thoughts, what would people talk about? I gather, NOTHING. I could always decide what is fine to share at the end of the day, and what should be kept to myself. Being an entirely open book could be very intimidating sometimes, and a tad too boring, nothing too mysterious about you anymore. The joy of mystery still gives me the chills, someone mysterious makes me want to know the person more. The question is, where do you draw the line of sharing your thoughts? I have got a lifetime to find out! :)
Kitchen has been wonderfully busy this week. When has it ever not been? I love the kitchen that stretches me physically, which escalates to the mental, character and emotional stretching. Yeah, getting old and needing the agility. Haha..I laugh at my own lame jokes. Wonderful. God continues to download on me, I need space Lord! Slowdown please? :) Begging to slowdown my growth, how foolish is that? :P
I have been hiding in my room for the whole afternoon. It refreshes my soul, but then by this time, I feel the need to fix my aloneness. So, party again tonight! Happy birthday Melisa! I have been able to get a few things done hiding in here, so that is wonderful and great. Booked my ticket home, ah, cannot wait till I meet you again, tanah airku! :)
Now this post is not getting anywhere anymore. Maybe I just need to be less divergent, then I can express myself better. Make my brain matter work!
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