Yesterday was the last day of outreach. 6 months is coming to an end in a week's time. It is bittersweet. The last 6 months has been filled with joys, lots of fun, pains, fears, growths, appreciations and thankfulness and life to the fullest. I am living the life that I have been called to. The ups have been more than the downs, and what is life without the downs? God did not promise a bed of roses, but He promises His presence and ever present help in time of need. And I have seen that evidenced in my life.
The car accident almost 4 weeks ago has been a very scary event. An event that shook me to the core. Sure, I have not been able to digest nor process all of it because of the call upon my life at the moment, but one thing I have been able to stand on has been God's unfailing love and faithfulness. In moments I knew not anything, He pulled me through. In moments I felt like I just wanted to crash and not continue on, He carried me. I saw His hand prints in my life these last 4 weeks.
I surely do not want to live an empty life. I have reflected on my work, wondered at times if I was doing the right thing, at the right location and spending my youth well, and the answer has been an undoubted YES! No, I do not believe that I will spend the rest of my life here, but for now, this is my cup, and I want to invest in it well. The more I look upon my life and how I have made my decisions, the more Hebrews 12:1-3 have been proven to me.
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run(A) with perseverance(B) the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus,(C) the pioneer(D) and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross,(E) scorning its shame,(F) and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.(G) 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary(H) and lose heart."
It could not have been me. It has been Jesus, the author and perfecter of my faith. All I have been doing has been keeping my eyes on Him the way I know how. It is not the perfect way, but it is how I know, through my imperfect lenses. And it is His faithfulness that has carried me through, and moulded my character and faith. There is so much more to life than what I know now. So many glorious adventures as I give over the reign of my life over to Him more and more. My shortcomings do not matter in the grand scheme of things because His perfection will carry me through and is for me to lean on.
I am grateful for the life He has given me, and for all that He is to me.
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