It felt like it has been a while since I wrote...and it turns out to be true. :) 2 months since I last wrote. It is a beautiful sunny day outside at the end of winter, the dawn of spring. Today's post is inspired by a group of singing young people called Endless Praise. Listening to good vocals just inspires me. It took me back to the days when I was back at home in the little town of Sitiawan where as a small church, we had limited resources so everyone had to learn to do everything, and how enriching that was then. I sang so much in those years, and felt so much joy in my heart, a sense of freedom to be. A freedom that ageing sometimes doesn't give you.
But I think that is just me, limiting myself. Or rather, allowing the world/environment/surroundings to dictate what could be. So often I am surprised by what I think and say, and it is as if Jesus doesn't live in me - the lack of hope in certain parts of my own life. I guess, it is easier to have and give hope to others, but I forget to take hold of that same hope for myself that Jesus gives.
Lately God has been bringing me back again and again to my roots, not just my Malaysian Chinese roots, but more so my family roots, the foundations of who I am. I feel that in these last few years I have been in Perth, that section of my life became a distant memory, packed away somewhere in the deep corners of my mind but after making a significant decision, that corner has been unpacked and God is beginning to bring those things up again.
And He has been reminding me of things of old, and somehow causing me to remember them by bringing them to mind, because He is God and there is no other as spoken in Isaiah 46:9. I think this next bit of my journey is another refining journey: Of bringing the old and the new together, and making them my own, never feeling the sense of betrayal that I have been feeling, but renewed because I have made both mine.
It is a significant season as I begin preparing to move into another season. So yes, this next bit is very unstructured, unplanned and there will be lots of family and relationship building time, but this season is as significant as any other, as I allow my family, especially my parents to speak into my life as I spend a significant amount of time with them. And then I move on to another chapter and anticipate greater things to come: greater freedom, greater joy, greater understanding of the faithful God I serve. The faithfulness of God needs to be spoken and lived out through my life more and more.
And if it means singing again, and diving back into music, bring it on! If it means laying down studies, okay! If it means more unplanned things and greater lack of knowing, alright! If it all comes to one thing, obedience is that one thing I want to do continuously, because I know how disobedient I can be in myself. His love is the greatest antidote to the poisons in my life. I am so very grateful to this God who loves me.
Glory to God.
gracey
4 comments:
yeah, i can relate to what you wrote! praise God for the wonderful work He is doing in your life and the beautiful plans that are unfolding one by one according to His time. glad to know you are doing great, Grace! i started work in Singapore a month ago.. it's an adventure :)you take care ya. btw, valerie here. the one you went malacca with 2 years ago.
Did you? What about Andrew? Long-distance relationship?
Has it really been 2 years? Wow, time has really gone by us.
How is it there now?
Thanks for your comment, Grace!! Believe me, you inspire me more with your faith-filled adventures.
I take it that you'll be home soon? CALL ME. :)
Yes I did, I'm in Singapore for almost 2 months now. Yup, trying to maintain a long distance relationship.
It's good here. There's just so much to share and I don't know where to start.. but I'm good here. I miss home though. Hope that this adventure will mold me to be a better person :)
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