Today was one of those days I felt that I really want to go home. What was I thinking? What have I done? I have not been in my right mind when I talked myself into this. Today is the second time this week I feel I have done a mistake in coming.
Can someone please buy me a flight home? :( It is hard to comprehend my involvement here. Everything seems to be against my being back. Was I kidding my own thoughts and desires?
Every inch of my body wants to say that I have made a wrong call this time, yet I know this is exactly what is ahead of me. I know the more I want to give up and have a bad attitude, the harder it is to learn and absorb. The last week has been quite amazing in that I have had to stop and acknowledge that I am not in control of my life but God. He is the one in whom I can fully place my trust and I should follow. He is my unshakeable God.
God, please make my paths straighter than I can see. I want to follow You. In obedience and trust and rest. I know you love me. Very much.
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3 comments:
oh dear... what happened...
hey dearie...
how's things? what's wrong?
do email me...if u need to pour things out :)
hang in there alright.
Deb: Just one of those struggles to surrender and to make sense when I kinda got a bit lost.
Erin: I'm good, just needed to put some things out there.
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